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I do not have a pornography addiction; that is my official party line. At least it was until I visited this site: http://www.noeldouglas.com/psychology/pornography/Are_You_a_Pornography_Addict, that came highly recommended. Ive always maintained that guys have more addictive personalities than gals (just a personal observation - I have no scientific data to back it up). Therefore, if you are male and a porno-phile like myself, I challenge you also to take this test.

Dr. Douglas makes some very insightful points. One was the guilt factor associated with porn, which is quite true in my circumstance. Another good point he brings up is the tendency of the porn addict (or any addict for that matter) to substitute porn for intimacy. However, I dont necessarily think that its such a bad thing to view pornography when youre bored, nor to view pornography in order to temporarily escape your personal problems (and, no, I dont think Im wading in a famous African river with this one); as long as you recognize the activity as a brief interlude or respite in the continuing saga that is your life (like catching a quick movie at the theater), and as long as you dont put your problems off indefinitely.

In my case, I partake of pornography as I would any other pastime such as baseball, picnicking, or watching TV.

Valid though his points were, I felt at times that his expansion for a point was nonsensical. For example, his 13th question asks if there are other forces compelling you to watch porn. But to illustrate his point, he asks the reader if he (the reader) indeed aspires to be a better individual but is hampered in that endeavor by pornography. What forces, whether internal or external, was the doctor alluding to?

Similarly, he demands whether the reader has ever thrown away an old pornography collection only to replace the collection with a new stash (question 9). Good questions. Then, however, he kind of goes off at a tangent and asks if the test-taker has ever viewed pornography or masturbated while in an altered, substance-induced, mental state. Huh?

At times, his points were repetitive. The emotional disconnect between the addict and his loved ones was mentioned more than twice.

Mind you, none of his points individually are misspoken. I just thought that oftentimes he took a faulty step in the path of his logic, and ultimately in the course of the test.

So I took the test with the same mindset I always have when Im, ahem, engaging in porn: I can quit any time I so choose. But a small part of my psyche constantly thinks that I just may be lying to myself, and heres why.

There have been times when I told myself I wouldnt look at porn for a set period. But, that would only make me want to look at naked women all the more (is that an addictive trait? I asked myself). Its the times when I gave myself free reign to look at all the porn that I so desired, that the porn didnt quite hold the same level of excitement for me. On the one hand, I guess we, as humans, do often want what we cant have or that which is forbidden. Conversely, it could be as Dr. Doug said: you can become desensitized to the average porn and may need more extreme pornographic material to attain the same carnal elation.

Having completed the test, Ive come to the conclusion that Im not a porn addict, per se. And yes, I did weigh several factors such as 1) my increased desire for porn when it wasnt readily available; 2) my tendency to view smut when I had nothing better to do; and 3) a sometimes pervading sense of guilt after a long viewing session."

I realize that I just have an over-blown sense of self effacement due to my strong Christian upbringing. And just as some people look at oil paintings and others gaze at sunsets, I enjoy looking at naked women; its soothing. The female body is truly the most beautiful thing that God put on this earth. If that earns me the label of a visual (pornography) addict, so be it. Ive been called much worse.

On the other hand, maybe its about time I got off this Egyptian cruise ship.

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